Not that anyone will give a shit, but I’m going to disappear for a bit.

Sick of all this shit about 4chan, so I’m just going leave until things blow over.

If anything gets posted here (though I doubt it, due to my new extra security measures) it aint me until I say its me. And trust me, if you guys follow me, you’ll know when I’m back.

So long people who probably don’t care.








there should be a two year period after high school where it is socially expected that kids not work or go to school or do anything but take road trips, read books, meet new people, and take lots of pictures

yeah that’s called a gap year… don’t you have that?

Not in America…


Omg American people come live with me please, I will shelter and feed you in Australia and we can have a gap year

Wow, I feel more and more sorry for my overseas brethren…Mind you in my gap year I worked full time to save money….

bold what you prefer.

coffee or tea

books or movies 

fruits or vegetables

headphones or earbuds

laptops or pc

facebook or tumblr

netflix or tv

hardcover or paperback

tv or movies

light or dark

salt or pepper

starbucks or dunkin donuts 

reading or writing

writing or drawing

hot or cold

talking or listening

instruments or voice

cake or cupcakes

black or white

sunset or sunrise

My mother asked if I wanted her toast. I turn to answer her and she just shoves it in my mouth.

This place is familiar, but it has been a while since I have stepped foot here.

It’s dark and the walls are closing in on me, and its mere seconds before I start crying. First, they are small tears, then small sobbing, and then full on racking sobs. Reality has hit me straight back into a place I never thought I would end up again.

Feet wander familiar paths that cohere with the familiar thoughts, pain and sadness make my feet hit automatic. It wasn’t a long wait for the darkness, though this time it isn’t welcome. It may have been here a million times before, but this time I don’t want its shit, I’m not the person I once was.

Go away, your darkness is no longer welcome in my mind.

I will not let my sadness drag me back down that hole.

Tensions rise. Nasty words are said about lazy people. I can’t help but apologise. I feel like it’s my fault. She assures me it’s not, that the others are to blame. I just wish she could be happier than she is.

My knee reminds me about the pain when I eventually stand from the hours sitting at the table. I seek out painkillers to soothe the stabbing feeling, but I do it with a smile on my face. The last few lines of my most recent conversation floats around in my head, making me a little dizzy. It makes me happy though, thoughts of a far off time where everything could be perfect and I would be the happiest person in the world.

Then I remember. It makes me wonder if these feelings I have are right. If I am allowed to hold such love for someone. I question life and the reason it throws things like this at me, wondering if I actually should be saying yes or no to it.

I wonder more if I’ll ever get what I want out of life, it would be nice but life is not known for granting everybody’s wishes.

We shall see.

"I didn’t say “I love you” to hear it back. I said it to make sure you knew."
(via bl-ossomed)

this is what I sincerely practice. I say and mean “I love you.” I do not say “please love me back”. (via misslissalindsey)


So with all the arguments made against Ubisoft for not including a female lead character, I don’t understand why people are so offended. I mean you are singling out a single developer for something that is done in games all across the board in EVERY genre and yet you still play them. So why are you singling out Ubisoft?

(This was taken from a comment made by the developer of Rust, which can be found here,

Please note, while I do consider myself a feminist, because women are people and should be equal, singling out one company for something like this is probably not the way to do this.

They made a design choice, not simply because the female form is too hard to animate, they also don’t have a lot of the animations there for the female form because they don’t have someone to get the data off at the moment. 

Now if you want to talk about the fact that they have done it before with Aveline, think again because while she has some parkour abilities, they aren’t at the level of polish needed for a game of this calibre. The actions made are probably done by male motion capture instead of female and on such a small screen as the Vita, this is hard to see, but once you make it bigger and add more definition it’s more obvious to a professional that something is very wrong with how she moves.

Animating something like this requires fluidity that can only be given through something like motion capture. And speaking from personal experience, parkour changes between gender because the centre of gravity changes. For a male to do it, we have a lower centre of gravity than females do and that changes how the body moves around objects.

However that wouldn’t also be the only difference, how much of the voice acting would need to change because of this? Your average person in the street responds to women differently than men because of their own judgements that people make. But also the entire voice acting for Arno would need to largely be scrapped because of how he would respond to certain situations.

This isn’t Dragon Age where you can change your dialogue options because you want to, this is a game that has a scripted story that they don’t want to throw out or have to make some major and minor changes based on gender.

Also, they are so late in the development process that changes such as this are no longer possible. The game comes out in 4-5 months and these changes require extensive work.

This has been a long winded rant and I’m sorry for it however so many people don’t understand what it takes to make a game and what something that might seem trivial is to the story and animation. If you want a game to look as amazing as it can, don’t argue with someone who has had years of practice with this, however I wouldn’t be surprised if their next AC game came with a female protaganist simply because everyone made such a major argument about it.

He has a point people, can everyone just shh now? I’m sick of this argument…go and complain about another company for their sexism too.
And while we are at it, appreciate the great games out there that give you the choice, I’m looking to you Bioware. Thanks for the option on being male and female and making it work so god damn well :)